I HAVE NOBODY

Good night (if you read this in your night), good morning (if you read this at morning) etc… hhehe

It’s been so long that I haven’t written.. and I miss it so damn! Right now, I just don’t know what I supposed to write, but believe me if I have started to write, I’ll write everything on my mind and they’re so many.. but  well I know, who cares? Seems somebody cares about my life..

In fact, I just felt desperate.. I almost lost in my own mind..

I have nobody to trust..

I have nobody to wipe my tears when they are streaming down my face..

I have nobody to share about my feelings..

I have nobody to calm me down..

I HAVE NOBODY..

[ah, you see? I have found a topic :p]

Yesterday was the day I felt that feeling, I just cry with no reasons.. even I just heard I good news about my second semester result, that wasn’t that great because there’s somebody else got a better average than me, well she’s in another class and we had some different teachers.. and it’s calm me down enough..

Sometimes, well often, I’m feeling hopeless..

About everything.. I’m tired to be the loser one.. when will I could be the winner ??

I can’t understand why people around me change? Or it’s just me who change? I don’t know..

All that I know is I just have nobody..

Btw, right now I am watching “Chasing Liberty” have you ever heard? Or you have watched that? I hate the part when Ben and Anna are kissing and it’s been cut!! Hhehe.. :p

Well, I just can’t concern anymore, maybe because I’m sleepy now..

Wait, I have a story : today I just  had a nightmare, but in my dream I got a message and I think God just reminded me by that dream.. in my dream, I’m so tired.. I’m lost and suddenly I remembered what I just left behind.. the flashback started and I realize how far I have out of the line..

In that dream, I promised to be back in line.. where I supposed to be in.. wish I could in real life..

I don’t forget for the quotes today ;

DON’T EVER FORGET TO ASK GOD TO REMINDS YOU WHEN YOU ARE OUT OF LINE

AND YOU WON’T REGRET ^ ^

And lyric for today  :

Taylor Swift - Hopelessly Devoted To You lyric

Guess mine is not the first heart broken,
my eyes are not the first to cry I'm not the first to know,
there's just no gettin' over you
Hello, I'm just a fool who's willing to sit around
and wait for you
But baby can't you see, there's nothin' else
for me to do I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide,
since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head,
hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you,
hopelessly devoted to you
My head is saying 'fool, forget him',
my heart is saying 'don't let go'
Hold on to the end, that's what I intend to do
I'm hopelessly devoted to you
But now there's nowhere to hide,
since you pushed my love aside I'm not in my head,
hopelessly devoted to you
Hopelessly devoted to you,
hopelessly devoted to you

Cr : index-of-mp3