"Your Smile is My Drugs"

Hii…  uuhhmm.. I think today was the day that I realize how much I need his smile, just like the drugs for me.. I just can’t pass a  day without remembering or just imagine his smile..

Well, I say it because this morning I was so upset, I was so dizzy to know the truth that I’m different, I’m not me, I can’t recognize who I am .. I realize it because My Mother told me .. My Mother was angry on me, I ‘ve been such a lazy-idiot girl.. but, I never meant to be like this, I want the real of me to come back home, I’m not supposed to be like this.. -_-

But at the last lesson in class, we had an examination on physics

Hhehe.. as you know, if you are a “real” student .hhehe.. we all have our way on cheating (I’d rather call it “the way to increase our result” .hhaha)

Uuhhmmm.. off course we have a discussion, and fortunately I sat near with him and we had the same question to answer .. he asked me again, and OMG! I love his expression when he recognize that his answer was different with mine .hhoho..

I do love that pretty face ^^

Because of his smile, I forget  all the pain, desperation, and frustration I felt before..

I even cried when I told the incident to my deskmate, I asked her about me, am I different? Am I change?

And she told me that yes I am.. well, thanks . now I know what I supposed to be, and what I supposed to do.. I just have to change my mind and try to find the real of me..

It’s the time that I realize “Na ajikdo noreul jiul su eobseo, Jakku jakku niga saenggakna” (u-kiss 0330) means “I still cannot erase you, I keep thinking about you” ‘cause you know, I had tried to forget him, to erase him from my brain and my heart, but I COMPLETELY FAILED!! THE MEMORIES ARE TO BIG!! Hhoho o.0

SO GUYS, I HOPE ALL OF WILL NEVER TRY TO BE ANYBODY ELSE. JUST BE YOURSELF AND YOU’LL GET THE BEST OF YOU.. DON’T  YOU EVER CHANGE TO BE WORSE THAN YOU ARE BEFORE :)

Song of the day :

Taylor Swift – I’m Only Me When I’m With You

                                          

>the amazing taylor swift<

Friday night beneath my stars, in a field behind your yard

You and I are painting pictures in the sky

And sometimes we don’t say a thing

Just listen to the cricket sings

Everything I  need is ‘round here by my side

And I know everything about you

I DON’T WANNA LIVE WITHOUT YOU

I’m only up when you’re not down

Don’t wanna fly if you’re still on the ground

It's like no matter what I do.

Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I'm only me when I'm with you.

Just a small town boy and girl

livin' in a crazy world.

Tryin' to figure out what is and isn't true.

And I don't try to hide my tears.
The secrets or my deepest fears.

Through it all nobody gets me like you do.

And you know everything about me.

YOU SAY THAT YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT ME.

When I'm with anybody else it's so hard to be myself.

Only you can tell.

That I'm only up when you're not down.

Don't wanna fly if you're still on the ground.

It's like no matter what I do.

Well you drive me crazy half the time;

the other half I'm only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.

And I'm only me

Who I wanna be

Well, I'm only me when I'm with you

With you

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